Tuesday, May 13, 2008

I should be working right now, but...

...I stumbled on this article, the reading of which was akin to drinking a warm cup of validation (on a cold day. On a hot day, validation would be best served cold). I imagine others might feel the same way. 

40 meaningless points in some never-to-be-explained game will be awarded to those who guess the article's source before clicking the link.

The piece is about procrastination, and how procrastinators should learn to embrace their nature rather than fight it. This rings true to me, as I have a habit of doing things at the last minute and often, hours before a deadline, resolve that from this point on I will always get started on projects well in advance. Of course, I rarely if ever live up to this resolution. It's just an endless cycle of putting things off, growing increasingly agitated about the unfinished (or unstarted) state of said things, putting them off some more, wallowing in existential guilt about the fact that I am the kind of awful person who puts things off, and, finally, putting things together in a hasty scramble with minutes to spare. This is usually followed by a brief, endorphin-fueled period that can be understood as the intellectual equivalent of post-orgasmic afterglow (provocative!).

All of which makes me more common than unique. But the issue of procrastination raises questions about the way people process their own bad habits. When it comes to procrastination, I am slowly teaching myself that it's not a big deal - that I actually do my best work when my laziness has backed me into a corner. What I'm trying to remove isn't the procrastination but the guilt that I feel about it, guilt that tends to inform other aspects of my life and self-esteem in general.

What I'm getting at is: what's more destructive, a bad habit or the guilt one associates with it? Obviously, if your habit is meth or child porn or terrorism, your guilt is the least of your concerns. But I have a feeling that a lot of people would be better served by giving themselves a break about certain habits, rather than enduring the endless guilt cycle.

I'd be interested to hear what bad habits people have that make them feel especially guilty, and whether they think the bigger problem is the habit or the guilt. Please weigh in.

I meant for this to be a really short post, but it didn't turn out that way. I must be trying to avoid something.

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